Everything in the world moves toward ever-increasing awareness and Freedom ~ Gary Zukov
Your time on Earth is an opportunity to use your will intelligently, wisely, and compassionately. When you do, you become a conduit for the energy of your soul. ~ Gary Zukov
I think I may be purely procrastinating on doing a JOB I'm not enjoying at the moment. I'm using the excuse that I promised to write something daily on this blog, but have been conflicted because I also promised to finish a project before doing anything "off task". That was yesterday morning.
These two messages are timely ones. I'm struggling with finishing this project because it showcases some of my talent, and I'd rather not be exposed in this way. But I'm reminded here this is an opportunity for me to move. Yet, I feel completely torn apart. It's a physical pain, and struggle within my body and mind. A struggle to NOT do what I know I should do, and even at times WANT to do. It's a strange dilemna.
I don't know the exact quote, but there is one that talks about the level of stress and anxiety created within you is directly related to the size of the outcome. With what I'm experiencing right now, I can only imagine that getting through this struggle today will bring me some kind of great happiness, or reward of some type.
Back to "work".
~Loralee
p.s. I came back and chose one final quote, from my "think new now!" box of cards....
Last night I slept intermittently, waking frequently with busy dreams & my left hand asleep. The sleeping arm started yesterday afternoon sometime, and it's still there as I type this message. I imagine I've pinched something in my shoulder, and a long soak in the bathtub would sort it out. Listening to my body has been something I've been "teased about" and "admired" for in varying quantities during my life. In some capacity I have always believed my body (especially when in pain) was giving me clues to life's questions. And it's been a puzzle I still have been unable to answer in many ways. Well, are all the questions in life really meant to be answered?
On Friday I wrote an email that said,
My mantra for the next while is supposed to be "walk in beauty", but also to step out in faith! take action before I have all the answers without being ready!!
And then this morning while selecting my Angel Card reading from Kimberly Marooney, I receive this card:
Change
Are you facing opportunities for change that are unexpected or unwanted? Do you know that you need to change something in your life, but fear is making you hesitate? The angel Change is reaching for your hand to lead you safely in a new direction. Find the willingness to change by taking the next step in front of you.
Sometimes you need to change your life before you understand why....Is your mind torturing you? Do you need a change of perspective? If you are having difficulty with a situation in your life, try looking at it from different perspectives until you find something that will help your mind relax and be patient. Don't make yourself crazy while changes are happening. Stop negative thoughts by focusing on something you know is TRUE. Don't let your mind get hijacked by what could happen.
Make commitments with yourself to take certain steps "by this date"
If you're feeling stuck, remember you have choices. Feelings of discomfort or anger creates the desire to change, and can be used to proper you forward.
Pray when you feel stuck, fearful, frustrated or angry. Ask the angel Change to reveal how this change will bring you closer to the light.
Dance! Get moving faster than whatever it is that is pulling you back into inertia ~ Man in the Mirror by Michael Jackson. It's really worth watching the words. I often get easily distracted by Michael Jacksons charisma, and I honestly don't think I'd really "heard" what he was saying in this song, until today.
Allow the angel Change to lead you by the hand, and listen to the Sarah Brightman song, "Deliver Me"
As I move forward with the day, and the months ahead I see how I'll be able to incorporate these steps into my life. A lot of what I'm working on is helping myself to change, but also encouraging others to as well. Incorporating Change can be scary! But it's also the only way to move forward. Life isn't meant to be lived stagnantly.
~Loralee
p.s. I'm still selecting a daily quote from Gary Zukav and "think New Now!"
Everything in the Universe moves toward ever-increasing awareness and freedom ~ Gary Zukav
Today (Friday January 21, 2011) all I could do was type out the complete text of this angel card, and leave the editing for another day. I enrolled in 5 teleseminars and I'm writing notes about them, while also constructing a new program (in my mind and on bits of paper). This is how I create! I listen to other thought leaders, hear how they are inspired, what brings them passion, and I allow new ideas to flow onto paper. For example, I was listening to a woman speak about putting together a 2 or 3 day speaking event. It's not something I'm interested in doing anytime soon, and I certainly am not interested in teaching other people how to promote themselves. But what inspired me was the way she laid out her sales letter, and the processes she used to create her program. I was in full learning mode.
I let my instincts guide me ~ think new now! cards
My angel card for today was:
Realization
From the book "Agnel Love", by Kimberly Marooney
The words that enlighten the soul are more precious than jewels. ~ Hazrat Inayat Khan, Indian Sufi mystic (born 1882)
Realizations are often the result of experiences you have during a spiritual endeavor such as prayer, meditation, and the contemplation of eternal truths. The angel Realization responds when your soul seeks truth. To begin the search, select the highest truths you can find in scripture and in the teachings of spiritual masters; then endeavor to realize their meaning.
Teachings or quotes provide a doorway to truth. You must do something to walk through that doorway so you can realize the truth for yourself. Realizing the truth is much more than memorizing words or modeling a behavior. A realization is a direct, personal experience of the truth within the words.
The angel Realization is reaching for your hand to pull you into the truer part of yourself, your soul. Spiritual truths help you uncover the qualities of your soul so you can bring these qualities to the functional level of your consciousness and use them in life. Realizations come from everyday experiences as well as from profound spiritual experiences.
Actions to Attract the Angel Realization:
Copy a spiritual quote onto an index card and carry it with your throughout the day. Seek to fully realize it's meaning.
When choosing quotes, find ones related to your challenges. If you are struggling with loneliness, seek quotes that guide you to experiencing the truest part of yourself and source.
Only by going alone in silence, without baggage, can one truly get into the heart of the wilderness. All other travel is mere dust and hotels and baggage and chatter. ~John Muir (1838 - 1914)
Share your quote with a friend (or do what I'm doing here)
Keep a journal of your realizations.
If you are determined, devote a weekend to serious prayer and meditation and keep at it until you feel unconditional love sweep through your heart. Play music that is intense and serious, such as these three movie soundtracks: Gladiator by Hans Zimmer and Lisa Gerrard, Bravehearet by James Horner, or Passion by Peter Gabriel. Each of these albums is a meditation in itself and offers a variety of music that will support you through the many different feelings you encounter when you open your heart to a response from the spirit. As you pray and meditate, ask the angel Realization to take you through the doorway to eternal truth. ~ Kimberly Marooney
Millions of humans are becoming aware of themselves as threads in a larger fabric of Life, and moving with deep dedication to contribute all that they are to it. ~ Gary Zukav
Somehow I'm not the least bit surprised that today when I finally took the time to center myself and select an angel card, that I would pull card #37.
Yesterday I mentioned how last year I had selected the same 2 cards (out of 3), 32 times in less than 2 months. There are 40 cards in the deck, and I haven't even bothered to calculate the odds. But it must be astronomical, to select the same 2 cards repeatedly day after day after day.
And just in case you're wondering if there is something sticky on the cards I was using? Or another excuse? It's unlikely, as this deck is brand new. The only times I've used it have been to make these posts here this month.
The card I've selected today is.... drum roll!!!
below is an excerpt from the book "Angel Love" by Kimberly Marooney, (areas marked in quotes). You can purchase a copy from Amazon ~ a link is on the side bar of this blog.
Sexuality
The more connections you and your lover make, not just between your bodies, but between your minds, your hearts, and your souls, the more you will strengthen the fabric of your relationship, and the more real moments you will experience together. ~ Barbara De Angelis, teacher
Sexuality is a potent aspect of being human. Sexual urges are as primal as hunger. Do unfulfilled desires and the residue of traumatic experiences prevent you from being able to function and feel pleasure? The angel Sexuality invites you to find healing. It is possible to be free of fear, guilt, and shame so you can feel sexually alive and experience profoundly intimate and passionate love-making.
Hidden secrets hold you hostage. Writing can help you remember long-forgotten experiences that may be affecting how you respond to life. Use the following questions to start:
What happened that shut you down sexually?
What are you ashamed of?
Are you numb and fearful? Why?
How do you feel about your current sexual relations and feelings?
Can you see a link between past experiences and your current situation?
What is missing?
What do you want?
Once you have identified any feelings of shame, fear, guilt, or anger that are interfering with your ability to be open and free sexually, meditate. Play music that triggers sexual feelings. Each time a painful feeling comes up, ask the angel Sexuality to help you let go of it. Wanting to be rid of the pain is vital. As long as you feel your anger or guilt is justified, the feeling will cling to you.
When you let all of these negative feelings wash out of you, healing begins. Your anger can become a powerful force for healing when it is transformed into a passionate desire to be rid of the past. As you let go of old feelings that have clogged up the places within you, love will have room to enter. Love from the soul and from it's connection with the source will flow through your heart and body and bring true healing. This love is a tangible energy that can be felt.
As you release feelings of fear, guilt and anger and open up sexually, your ability to connect with your partner will be greatly enhanced. Your partner will see in your eyes, not the fear, but the real you - not your anger or shame, but your love. Love blossoming in your heart is the most powerful aphrodisiac. It allows your two souls to connect in a profoundly intimate and fulfilling exchange.
The actions to take from the Angel Sexuality
explore sexual fantasies (talk with a safe friend or partner)
read erotic literature or watch provocative movies to arouse healing feelings.
Try on clothing that feels erotic and makes you feel alive sexually
Dress up like to look like someone you find attractive (magazine, movie etc) - Do a photo shoot!
If you are overactive sexually, you may need to calm your desires and direct your energy inward toward self-love and self-respect
Dance to the music listed below
Go Goo Dolls, "Iris"
Paula Cole, "Feeling' Love"
You're really going to want to watch this one! It's Good!
Marc Anthony, "I Need to Know"
Raphael, "Healing Dance"
I wasn't able to find this piece, so I've included another one from the same album
So, what does all of this mean to me today? I don't really know yet! Once again, an area that I must obviously keep on top of. Examining and being honest with myself about where I stand. What is really the truth. What is the truth of my past, but can be left behind as purely that! And what focus not on the future, but what is here right now. And create a space where I can continue to be healthy and healing in all aspects of my life ~ every single one.
Yesterday the fog had lifted from this city, but not from my mind. Today, I'm feeling clearer! I can't help but wonder if it may have had something to do with the beautiful full moon I had was watching through the skylight of this apartment. Quite the pull it has!
Until tomorrow.
Loralee
p.s. I leave you with one final quote, selected randomly from Gary Zukav's book "Soul to Soul Meditations"
All of the behaviors that most need to be changed feel involuntary. They are your obsessions, your compulsions, and, strongest of all, your addictions. ~ Gary Zukav
This card and another used to plague me. Well, not literally! But for nearly a year I selected 3 of these angel cards nightly and journalled about them. And for 32 out of 46 days straight, I pulled this card and another one. Clearly there was a message I needed to take from this Angel card, and I wasn't getting it.
The pages of my book are so dog eared here, and still smell vaguely of the essential oils I frequently had near my bedside table then. Here we go:
Sensuality
If only we are wise enough to stop and set aside a moment amidst the demands and distractions of our daily lives, to truly see the beauty that surrounds us, to hear teh sounds of birdsong, to taste a peach and smell the roses, to touch the one we love. ~ Elizabeth Millar in "The Fragrant Veil, Scents for the Sensuous Woman"
The soul is sensuous and playful by nature. The angel Sensuality revives your sensuous and playful spirit by guiding you to a more open, loving heart. Sensuality connects to the pleasures of the spirit and reveals itself through the senses of taste, hearing, sigh, smell, touch, and emotion.
Bodily sensations and your truer qualities are greatly enhanced when you are in touch with your soul. A slight breeze can feel like a passionate caress, and brief eye contact with a stranger can give you a glimpse into the grace of eternal love. Are you open to feeling aroused and vibrant?
She goes on to ask questions about how we (I) feel at this time in my life, today. Am I stopping to smell the roses? What areas of my life need a makeover? Is it my hairstyle or clothing? What can I change in my life to feel more sensual right now?
In the sensuality makeover she suggests the following:
meditate and ask the angel Sensuality to help feel connected with the sensual, playful nature of your soul.
Play music that provokes sensations and desires, and allow yourself to feel all of your emotions. Cry to wash away old pains and hurts, scream into a pillow to break through numbness and Dance!
Write about any thoughts that come to you, and any actions that you could take.
Take a bath with essential oils that smell enticing and make your skin feel smooth and delicious (This may be why my book smells so good right now)
Do a striptease
Act out a fantasy
Dress up in erotic costumes and accessories
Remove things from your closet that make you feel numb or dead. Wear clothes that bring you to life.
And, choose clothing that connects you to this following pieces of music
Celine Dion, "Seduces Me"
Alanis Morissette, "Uninvited"
Joe Cocker, "You Can Leave Your Hat On"
Sarah Brightman, "You Take My Breath Away"
While browsing for these video clips in YouTube I came across something that stirred me. It reminded me of a time of awakening while I was on one of my trips to England several years ago. I watched a documentary about Freddie Mercury from Queen. Someone who I'd known very little about, a tortured soul I've since discovered. Someone who was willing to step outside the box & be who he was, regardless of societies expectations of him. He stood for so many things that are admirable, whether you believe in the ways he experienced them, or not.
I found this little snippet of a video from 1977, by the same name
You Take My Breath Away, Queen
There is clearly a lifetime worth of work for me here, in this card about sensuality. I can't let it slide & think I've done the work, completed it like something on a checklist. Instead, it's something best revisited daily.
During the coaching call last week with Gary, he uncovered a phrase he believes should be my life motto.
Walk In Beauty
It's an old Native American saying that means
Beauty before me, beauty behind me, beauty beside me, beauty below me, beauty above me -- I walk in beauty.
You can read more about it in an ezine article here
In this article the author also says:
In this life, pain is inevitable--suffering is optional. The key to practicing non-suffering is to stay in the moment, stay in our "Beauty."
By drumwolf
All week my body has been filled with pain. Migraine pain for the first several days, then what seemed like a recovery day only to wake up this morning with another intense headache and sinus pain that's kept me small and quiet. In some ways it has been good for me though. I've stayed indoors, I've waited until the end of the afternoon to write this blog & I've quietly enjoyed teleseminars and information videos that peak my interest. And I did do some research for a client on a topic that interests me, something I could respond to quickly.
And how interesting it is to me, that "walking in beauty" is to be in a state of Grace ~ as this was the card I pulled yesterday.
I'm feeling less inspired to write today, so I will begin with my customary Angel Card. Today I will write my interpretation of her work, since I'm not feeling comfortable with the risk of copywrite infringement. The text in green in the section below is from Kimberly Marooney's book "Angel Love".
Grace
The soul learns which activities brings God's presence nearer. ~ Brother Lawrence, French Carmelite monk (1611-1691) in The Practice of the Presence of God
The angel Grace is God's messenger who bestows the experience of unconditional love at the most surprising moments. These precious moments light the beacons of faith in your soul, showing you the way home. Home is the place of your soul's origin, which lies within the heart of the ultimate source. When you are touched by grace, you are feeling God's tender caress calling you to "come home."
An Experience of grace provides a glimpse of the magnitude of the love that awaits you. This pure love ignites the longing of the soul for home. What is the state of your relationship with God? Do you have a personal connection with him? By what name do you call him? Even if you feel that you don't know God, realize that he never forgets you. He knows you intimately land waits patiently for you to want to know him again. Wherever you are in your relationship; with the divine, think of it as your starting point.
Your soul calls on the angel Grace to guide you into intimately personal experience of unconditional love. An open, yearning heart is an irresistible invitation for the intervention of Grace.
She reminds us that unconditional love is available to everyone, at all times.
ALL times!!
It's not something you earn
Some ways to experience Grace:
Ask the angel Grace to show you opportunities to share kindness. Be Observant. If you see a neighbor struggling with a heavy trashcan, offer to help. Or Take a flower to the clerk at your dry cleaners.
Listen to the following pieces of music:
"I knew I Loved You" by Savage Garden on Affirmation
"Ave Maria" by Chloe Goodchild on Devi to elevate your desire and attract grace.
And a quote from Gary Zukav
Judging is like watching a big-screen, big-sound, full-color feature film in black and white on a tiny television set with one small speaker. The feature film is your life. The reduced black-and-white version of it is what you see through your judgments. ~ Gary Zukav
Entrepreneur & lover of excitement, I was terrified when I found myself with painful & embarrassing symptoms. After weeks of seeing my doctor & specialists, I stumbled across the answer. One that was staring me right in the face the whole time. Maybe your painful itch, isn't as embarrasing as you think? Maybe you can be healed, just like me!
Thanks for reading my story ~ Lora
